Sunday, October 4, 2015

invocation

(the writing prompt for today was: magic) 

we lay our hands on the head of a child the sick the dying and
we say words, calling for help asking for some intervention of unseen
spirits presence an invocation an invitation to the Unseen be it the saints 
or Jesus or loved ones that still seem to linger 
we say words to empower to break up the dark things that keep the good
from getting in go away cancer be gone draining spirits let me child know 
she is loved protect envelope give wisdom 
we're surprised when it happens when the depressed get up and dance 
when the dying decide to live for another day when a devastated community
responds with love instead of hate 
words thrown up and out to who-knows-where pleading with whoever's-out-there
to help to save 
and there is that unseen hand in the dark that person who drops into our life who
changes the landscape of our lives there's relief and breath and hope a way 
made out of no way a path in the wilderness in the madness there is shelter a gentle 
push on the back to keep going believing in the invisible the wonder the hidden goodness
the light that never went out but we couldn't see 
we invoke we lay hands we plead we raise our fists we implore and sometimes
sometimes all the cogs of the unverserse kick into place the light gets through a door
opens a darkened window bursts open with light and it feels 
like 

magic

Saturday, October 3, 2015

what is Truth?

(the OctoPriMo daily writing prompt was 'draining'- what drains you?)

too much information demanding 
what do you think?what will you say? 
picking, picking, picking scabs, poking the 
lion, daring it to roar and attack 
noise, noise, noise, chaos, yellling, spitting
god gives me the right to hate you and I'm 
his favorite polls and debates and senseless numbers
dividing the sheep from the goats goading goading goading
poking, testing, pushing  too far 
why aren't you more like me? selfish people spewing hate 
people who are supposed to love you use the word to 
manipulate control shame not seeing you for who you are 
but what they want you to be 
facades, lies, fabrications, it doesn't matter anymore 
what is Truth?  nobody cares anymore words all crashing 
hurting, splintering, crushing, killing there are no rules 
nagging nagging nagging me me me mine mine mine 
people people people sucking sucking sucking 
you are never enough you are never what they want or feel
comfortable with you are never who they need you to be to 
feel good about themselves you never know what is true and right 
and good they will take and take and take and it will
never be enough
you 
will never be enough

Friday, October 2, 2015

The Barbaric Yawp

(the OctoPriMo writing prompt for today was to write about a favorite scene from a movie. Mine is from "Dead Poets' Society) 


sweaty palms, musty air 
breathed by students for the 
last two hundred years 
recirculated for the next group

he sits up front, yet is 
sure that no one can see him 
invisible, unimpressive 
not the One Expected to Do Great Things 

he adjusts his tie that is 
cutting off his oxygen or is 
it the knowledge that he is here 
to become someone he is not  

he slumps in shame afraid 
to admit he didn't do the work 
he tried, he worked, he ached 
but the words of his soul 

weren't worth repeating  

every day he is bumped along 
against the shoulders of the Future Doctor 
Future Lawyer all tied up in suits and 
ties and polished shoes 

he repeats words that fall like 
dust on his tongue, words his father 
treasures but evoke no passion 
no heart no life for him 

be a man not an amoeba
Seize the Day 

just rubbish, he sighs 
sweeping the dreams out of 
the corners of his heart 
he must be clean he must...  

sitting there, shrinking, dying 
the weight of institutions, of society 
of his Parents or some benign God 
invoked reverently at meals 

bear down him 

he can't breathe 

surely he's going to die 

because living is so hard 

he believes everything inside of him 
is worthless 

as the spotlight shines in his 
darkness, publicizing his shame 
his terror his failure 
the varnish on the old desk 

sticks to his clothes 

his chest constricts as he's pulled 
out of his darkened room where it 
is safe and he's propelled into being seen
and viewed as the Other Son 

misfit, crazy, pushing against institutions 
and structure and stabililty 
dancing on the edge of madness 
challenging decorum and tradition 

the man pulls and pulls
holding him firmly 
pushing his face to look up 
at the picture of 

the Mad Man, the Misfit 
the One who'd seen the horrors of war 
and shoved the words, the truth in faces
that turned away  

degenerate, angry, daring, 
trampling on the storage places of 
the grapes of wrath 
o captain, my captain 

seize the day this moment 
all time suspended clocks stop 
the universe holds it's breath 
the din of the masses are silenced 

Uncle Walt in his grave turns to see 
the desperate souls longing, aching to be 
born into who they are, the misfits 
the artists, the lovers all longing to be free

the madman dances with him, pulls 
his song out of his soul with his eyes closed 
spinning, swirling, seeing only the Now 
This Moment, This Breath 

it is yours we are listening for 
your unique verse, your part in the grand play 
that holy second when you dance free 
without fear to the rythm of who you are 

as he spins, his heart breaks free the tie
is loosened and he feels like he could fly 
he opens his eyes and people are watching, 
watching him come to life, watching him be born 

he is alive

seize the day, boys, seize the day 
the old man whispers from the earth

seize the day


Thursday, October 1, 2015

Nature's Hologram

(For Day One of the OctpoWrimo Daily Prompt: Clouds)



when i was little
clouds floated up above
the tall buildings
like meringue on a pie

faraway, unreachable, transcendent

now where i live they reach down to
the ground, tickling the edge of the
horizon
not above but beside, a cottony boundary

seedbed for the thirsty earth
friendly and beautiful, an orchestra pit
for angels serenading
rows and flows of angel hair 

flying above them, visage from a window
i want to step out and bounce on the
billowy white surfaces, lay down in their
encompassing embrace

commune with their weightlessness
sink into their depths
pull off a piece like cotton candy
and squeeze it in my palms

from below there are days those unmenacing
billows turn yellow and black
and twist, turning Jekyll into Hyde
swirling, spinning, touching down

and destroying
dismantling
making a way where there was
no way leaving only devastation

as walls tumble and foundations cave
there is a silence after the train wreck
and the soft, baby's butt innocence returns
to a blinding blue canvas

as if nothing happened

ice cream castles in the air 
feather canyons everywhere 

after the storm there is peace again
a smile from the heavens across the
horizon with orange and purple and light
the moon in the wings waiting to go on

you can't grasp it or hold it
or control it you can't touch it or
bounce on it's soft billowy surface
or play harps with the angels

you can only look and wonder
knowing the power that lurks in the beauty
a power to respect, a wonder to embrace
i really don't know clouds at all


Tuesday, September 15, 2015

bus stop



people crowded
buses running this way and that
barely missing each other
in passing

city streets
women with burqas
hasidics with curly sideburns
cyclists wearing helmets

people with eyes
not seeing
ears not hearing
for the din is beyond capacity

and a boy
loving his mamma
she talking to a friend
while he grasps her arm

lays his head on
her shoulder, stroking
her hair, tugging on her
sleeves

he grunts loudly
stomping his feet
mama! mama!
people turn

the invisibility of the crowds
the mass cut down to one
his body too large
for his behavior

people look
trying not to be noticed
as the boy yells words
that aren’t words

demanding the attention
his mother withholds
and instinctively we turn
our faces away

embarrassed, we say
for her and the spectacle
her son makes
but she visits with a friend

unruffled by his demands
unperturbed by his outbursts
a day in her life
and we all just fold

into the anonymity of
the masses
trying not to see
pretending not


to hear

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

I Fell In Love With Another Country



i didn't mean
for it to happen
it just
did

the narrow streets
ancient buildings
as old as
God

creating a
passageway to travel
through past
and present

co-existing

organ music
thundering in sanctuaries
carved miraculously
expertly

centuries before
columbus stumbled
into a land
already inhabited

history permeates
the air i breathe
dust mites of Romans
atoms of the saints

my bare feet
travel over
the Queen's sand
and flint

walk
in the footsteps
of Sir Arthur
the fiction of sherlock

feel the chill
of the Ripper's
savage
ghost

the smell
of old wood
and stone
modern and ancient

transfiguring
time

hot tea
in the afternoon
clotted cream and jam
on scones

walking in
the country
strangers
in a small village

tip their caps
and say hello
don't single
me out

as american

double decker
buses
advertising
american films

perhaps a
guilty reminder
of where
i am bound

but here
is where
it all began
the country

that formed me
the faith
that nourished
me

my soul
feels a
strange
sense of home

ancient beginnings
source
birthplace
origin

and when
the plane
leaves
the achingly familiar

i weep

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

changing tides


opening the car door
I immediately inhaled
the sea air
heard

the sounds of the white
and grey birds
felt the coolness
of the air
within the summer heat

my feet awkwardly
traversed the hot sands
littered with slate stones
making my gait seem
that of a drunk
always unsteady

the gulls
     the gulls
screeching and gliding
     teasing
showing off
     or pausing to insist
            on a snack

years melted
      time confused
as I immersed my land-locked feet
           in the eternal waters
on the edge of the world.

little girl
         sand in her bathing suit
I could hear her unburdened giggles
          her undisciplined play
kicking up water tasting salt
          when caught in the undertow

momentary panic
           clenching  lungs
as the watery world turned her
           on her head

in my daydreaming
       she emerges through the foam
triumphant
         relieved
exhilerated
         by the imbalance
skidding butt-first
          along the tide

in all the changing
       tides
shifting sands over years
        that smell
               that unique smell

fish and sun and sun lotion
        that salty, sandy taste
              the sound of waves
                     Landing gently
all touchstones
          constants

Home
        in a topsy-turvy
                unpredictable world

I've been away too long

I closed my eyes
          standing knee-deep
in timelessness
          sands sifting through my toes
                    gulls scolding me for my invasion

and I want to sink down
         allow the womb-like waters
to enfold me
            carry me

remind me
      that Home
           is here
deep inside

never so faraway